j o a n n e

My Mr. Right

2011-02-25T13:27:00.005+08:00

there were times i will doubt : are you the right one?

and as the relationship grows, I am now more and more assured :

YES, YOU ARE MY MR. RIGHT

no big reasons behind, just the heart tells me so

U always know what I want

U always know what I am going to say next

U just know me so well that sometimes,

I will wonder, is there a microchip U have installed in my brain

Never heard any romantic words from U

U don't plan special things on Valentine's Day

when I ask why, U answered sincerely :

I spend my everyday with U, so I feel nothing special about Valentine's Day

ya, U just have your very own way to melt my heart

U will never give roses and chocolate as presents

but U try your very best to give me everything I like

the Universal Studio, the Hard Rock Hotel, the fairy tales, the Swarovski

from watches to bags,

from food to trips,

from candies to ice-cream . . .

U know me so well

and these are the surprises from U

not romantic, but very true

with U aside, I feel so safe

and every time when I ask stupid questions

say silly funny things

U will say : why is my girl so stupid?

but before the line ends, your arms are already on my shoulder

giving me a big warm hug

maybe that's why U say I am getting more stupid and careless

because U are spoiling me, with your care and love

dear Mr. Ewe Wye Lun , and so now i officially announce :

YOU ARE DEFINITELY JOANNE LIAU'S MR. RIGHT

dear, i love you

选择

2011-01-18T12:55:00.003+08:00

回槟城的路上，突然收到我爸send给我一封很长很长的简讯...对，他不善于表达，典型东方男人...可是他又很担心，所以他善用科技

看完后，我反应不过来，只会流眼泪.... 纳闷为什么就是一直不能做一个让他放心的孩子

他说每天看到我为了自己的梦想很忙很累，会担心

但是又无能给我我要的东西而自责

我知道一直以来他很遗憾当初没有送我出国

可是他不知道我没有后悔留在这里

现在能做的

只有快快成功，不再让他担心

也只能这样，他才会知道，他已经给了我最好的

这个男人照顾了我的前半段人生

接下来我必须自己去闯

自己要的自己去闯去创

我们不能选择出生的环境，但绝对可以选择自己要的生活

我身边有两个活生生的例子

两个小孩，完全不同的家庭

一个3岁时已经拿着叫 ipad 的玩具，用来看图书和填色

另一个3岁时妈妈已经不在了

joshua的爸爸是富二代，有名咖啡厂老板

ivan的爸爸是建筑工人

joshua的确比ivan有更多的选择与弹性

但是那天我看见ivan因为保姆车迟来载他上学而流泪时，我知道这个孩子的未来不会坏到哪里去

至少他还有一个循循善诱的婆婆，告诉他一定要好好读书

听话的小孩，不会坏到哪里去吧

我真的很希望以后看见长大的ivan是有成就的

我自己曾经因为考得好却没考到奖学金出国而哭了一晚

现在我庆幸我没出国

或许你会说：出国可能会遇到更好的机会

我说：我就是在中六时遇见那个我认为可以照顾我下半辈子的男人

我现在很享受每天和他一起为将来努力的生活

与其羡慕别人家可以让他们买这买那，我更喜欢我自己努力得来的

现在我爸爸不能让我开口就有，我绝对能让我爸爸以后开口就有

我爸爸不能带我出国旅行，但是我肯定会带他出国吃喝玩乐

值得！

SMILE

2010-12-26T16:34:00.003+08:00

SMILE - CHARLIE CHAPLIN

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though it's breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky

you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun shining through

For you.

Light up your face with gladness,

Hide every trace of sadness.

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying.

You'll find that life is still worthwhile-

If you just smile.

a brief post from me,i love to smile,i love people around me to smile always too (=

Visualising my dream

2010-11-18T01:34:00.002+08:00

I will have a photo like this,but with me n him standing n posing there.. Yay ...
I can when I wanted to !

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Current me

2010-11-18T01:20:00.001+08:00

Having exam now,my second last exam before I get my degree from usm..time flies..the night where he lied to me that I got ums sabah n he got usm,making me cried is just like yesterday..until now,five more months n I will be working,but I am not sure with job opportunity yet..still,i never regret choosing environmental biology as my major (little regret taking management as minor though)..i enjoy knowing more about the earth n environment..the place everyone of us staying in...
Currently,i am working hard to make myself into a more productive person..both for my academic and my DREAM - to go to Paris with him.. It's difficult to make ownself alwiz in the positive mode,but learning hard to..perhaps a bigger dream will create a bigger will n eventually a stronger,passionate and determined me?

My dear friends,whenever u see me wasting time idling around or on facebook,please leave me five alphapets ya - P A R I S ~ !!!!
I will buy souvenirs for those who do so..hoho..

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Testing

2010-11-11T02:21:00.001+08:00

Just ignore this post

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No free meal please

2010-10-27T17:36:00.004+08:00

okkay, the DiGi is indeed generous enough that they are having a competition giving RM10k every week (http://www.facebook.com/DiGiYouths?v=app_7146470109)..all u have to do is take a photo n tell them how u want to spend the RM 10k if u got it..how to get that money,easy,u juz have to ask all ur frens to vote u coz the entry with most vote will be the winner n walk away with RM 10k.. sounds right till now.. but when i browse through the entries,i get speechless.. those dudes are asking for ipad, iphone,vaio,xbox n all these gadgets.. some will say :"we want to go to paris n shop till drop" .. some even say :"pls help us,kami nak kahwin!" $@#$%^&^%$#%^& you want to enjoy gadgets and want to get married also need to get help? ppl nowadays juz love to wait for free lunch..

there are also entries saying they will channel the money to charity foundations.. and some are entries from charity foundations themselves such as old folk homes,children cancer organisation n etc..

well, results : those asking for gadgets or trips have 500 votes all, but those for charity gained less then 100votes..

but i can understand, nowadays to win this kind of tng is damn easy, u juz have to tag all ur frens n ask them n their frens to vote..

u don't have to be pretty to win "most pretty gal" because ur frens will still vote for you when u ask them to..

wat a sad reality ... i wonder will DiGi really pay those daydreamers RM10k n let them buy gadgets while old folks in old folks home remain losing hope to the world..

Hope : For a better world, with less daydreamers who wait for free meals

When You're gone )=

2010-10-19T16:04:00.003+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the charger you left, it lie on the floor
And it smell just like you, I love the things that you do

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

Dedicated to my Nokia N81 8GB

December 2008 - October 2010

sorry for dropping you always,all the scratches and bruises on you body..

i think you are really mad at me and this time

i never get the chance to pick u up again

how are you doing my dear?

hopefully that bad guy who took you will treat u nice

I MISS YOU )'=

时间真的不会等你

2010-09-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

今天的心情很掺杂

一早就有人告诉我丁丁的妈妈去世了

我好久没去他们家了，久到我都忘了最后一次叫她婆婆是几时了

他们说中秋节时他们还有和婆婆一起吃月饼

隔天婆婆不舒服，就去看医生，结果 ....

一切也未免太快太突然了吧

我去看婆婆时，唯一欣慰的是，她的样子很安详

我赶回怡保是要带我妹去弄头发

四年后轮到她去中五毕业晚会了

好开心，陪她化妆弄头发

再载她去酒店

想起四年前是我爸载我去的

时间真的不会等人

要孝顺我婆婆我老爸

我要早早成功！！！

坚持

2010-09-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

坚持熬过去

坚持不想他

坚持读完那些很闷很闷的文章

坚持直到我去到巴黎

坚持一个人生活几天

坚持自己

坚持坚持坚持

没事，我只是自我鼓励自我提醒一下而已

别担心，我还是很好

坚持，因为我就不信我不能

be a kite a.k.a. another crapping post

2010-08-24T22:34:00.005+08:00

my to-do-list is getting longer n longer

yet,the progression is so so slow )=

my to-BUY-list is getting shorter n shorter

bcoz,the urge is just too strong (=

at first want to crap abt my laziness,then after typing the first line,there's a feeling of no use i tell ppl how busy i am..so,i deleted that line..

in fact, i am going to tell everyone reading this blog

"although i am busy,but i am doing well."

Kites rise highest against the wind,not with it.. so,I AM A KITE !!

just a short n brief update (=

2010-08-13T15:24:00.003+08:00

so that u all will know i am doing well

update # 1

I have started with my Final Year Project (yup,i am in my final year dd,time flies (= )

and i am doing it "so far so good"

of course lah,as usual,the laziness and procrastination are still there

update # 2

I spent GREAT time with my roommate, Jacyn and new friend i should say,Samantha and also

Xinyu

because they (except for jacyn of course) will alwiz come to our room and v chat happily n laugh LOUDLY, not ladylike at all i can say XD

update # 3

besides the chat we had with sam and xinyu , me n jacyn talk about everytng anytng every night... (and i have to force myself to wake up the next day)

especially yesterday, we started at 1 am and v talked non-stop, till 6am !! but i really enjoy it (=

of course v can't and we won't do that so often (maybe once a week?! )

THANKS JACYN <3

update # 4

i am learning to give him more space (not the "ruang" that space *though he's gaining weight* shhhhh*,hiakz hiakz,but the freedom kinda space)

so that the relationship can last LONGer

ya,i love him <3

update # 5

"i am going to do my laudry NOW !! yay ..."

"duhhhhhhh"

lovey-dovey

2010-07-30T21:39:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND <3

he knows me really well (=

a 5D4N trip . . . .

2010-07-20T16:04:00.005+08:00

. . . . to the hospital ==

was just so scary .....

it all started with sore throat , ignored it for 3 days , then too pain , see doc at uni hospital , doc said it was just viral infection , use this to gargle then u will be fine

gargled twice , condition went worse , fever the next night , the boyfren brought to see another doc in the midnight

the nightmare started . . . .

doc : i will write u a letter , go to the GH tomorrow .. if not tngs will be even worse...

me face turned green

too scared and worried , so the boyfren decided to send me to GH a.s.a.p

so went to ER then doc checked and said :" i have to call the ENT doc and u have to admit to hospital now..."

waited nervously again , ENT doc checked and her expression gave me a bad feeling )=

was sent to the ward , and it was 1am . . . the eerie ward made me feel so so bad

nurse introduced one killer to me . . . . the IV line . . . .

the pain is so not bearable especially when u met an unexperienced nurse @@

took some blood from the other hand .... the boyfren stood there looking at me helplessly,juz wiped the tears and hold me tight ..... thx dear <3

the first night is okkay, coz he was there the whole night

time really passes so so so sooooo slow in the hospital

morning , doctor said it is peritonsillar abscess (i hope i spell this correctly)

signed consent and . . . . .

was sent to the treatment room...by that time the father had reached penang ....

the treatment : to cut and drain off the pus from the swollen tonsil WITHOUT ANY ANESTHETIC

the scream and shout made the father and boyfren felt so bad ...

and due to this , i am now having armed-doc-phobia ...whenever i see those doc coming near to me with tools in their hands , i will shiver lk mad and tears will automatically roll down

dad decided to transfer me bek 2 ipoh hospital ... the doc only allowed GH ... where another nightmare starts

sent to surgical ward , with total of 20+ patients !!! all with serious diseases such as cancer and blablaabla... tried to be filial and ask parents to go home ... who knows , one grandma at one bed away from me passed way that night!!!!!! i was so so terrified when i was awoke by the noise of the "tong mayat" (as the nurse called it) which they put it just next to me.... i dared not make even a single move but just closed my eyes as tight as i could...and started praying in the heart T.T for the whole night,i couldn't sleep ...

when i thought tngs will be better , doc said : the swelling is still there , i have to reopen the cuts and explored again , see you in the treatment room at 10am later

tears rolled down without a word and she asked me wat happened .... told her and even begged her ... she juz said : i know its uncomfortable,but we have to do that

so . . . . the pain was tasted for one more time , better is she allowed the boyfren in this time... thx so much my dear for those encouragement ... i guess his hand was as pain too (= grabbed him so hard

the doc is so considerate too,she gave me painkiller injection prior to the "treatment" ... but the injection killed me too @@

that evening,in the ward,another young lady passed away ... cancer ... felt so bad again so cant sleep again

to sum up , in that few days,in my ward only, 4 patients passed away ]= i felt so bad everyday

but wat to do , cant discharge due to the swelling not subsiding .. so worried they will send me down again...and all double ward were fulled,i cant charged ward but to stay at there..

i was so over nervous until i even suffocated at the second night..luckily one young handsome doc passed by and saved my life... XD

but i had to change place - to places with oxygen tanks. so i slept next to dying patients !! T.T

and the drips kills me too... hand swollen then change place to set new IV line..still rmb the nurse looked at me,with a sympathetic tone saying : u tahan sakit kejap ya , sebab tinggal sini boleh cucuk aje la

so now i have 3 holes on both hands )=

the last morning, hand swollen again , the nurse said : harap adik boleh balik la,if not kena cucuk tangan yang lain lagi la...

to prevent this, i begged the doc to discharge me.. when he said want 2 keep me for one more day, my tears started to roll in the eyes...haha..this works !! he released me!! but in condition i have to back for check up..

until now, i still can rmb how i forced myself to swallow,to talk,to eat,to drink just to make the family and boyfren not too much worry

every night i will still feel scared thinking of those experiences

so i want to say out everytng here and forget about all of them A.S.A.P. !!!! (the boyfren taught me this)

thank you to all those who text me,visited me

most important to those who took care of me (=

* so good that i have Ms Cheng Shu Xian the best fren who is taking medicine course... whenever those docs said weird tngs,i will text her and she will explain to me XD

these doctors + houseman will walked round the ward every morning . . . the chief will ask questions and they have to answer... which usually they will get them wrong == and kena marah kuat-kuat ... i wonder how they get their licences ?!

they successfully raised up my threshold point for pain !!! very much higher now... but i m still with lowthreshold point for tears XD mayb even lower now..

people,wish me luck that i will be a stronger girl in the future . . . especially this thurs because i have appointment at the ENT clinic

(=

2010-07-14T12:49:00.004+08:00

笑一笑重新整装出发

看见自怨自艾他们

在骂天气骂老师骂老板骂这个骂那个时

只希望自己不会变成下一个他们

失去某某或任何东西并不可怕

可怕的是不能从中走回出来

这个假期我真的学了很多

挂着满足的笑容我要出发咯 ! ! !

至少我尽力而为

2010-04-08T01:35:00.003+08:00

如果你会那样对我说

“相信我无悔无求我愿为你放弃所有

男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为

相信我别再闪躲我愿陪你直到最后

男人不该让女人流泪

至少我尽力而为相信我 ”

纯粹是歌词，好像蛮动听

今天才知道有这么一首歌

喜欢是因为“尽力而为”那四个字

很简单，很确实

我希望至少你能为了我

尽力而为

不对自己仁慈

2010-04-07T16:19:00.003+08:00

成事不足败事有余

挫折感

就是不能咬着牙根挨过去

把心一狠，不对自己仁慈

事情就解决了

吸引力法则 - the secret

2010-04-05T12:33:00.003+08:00

一起来就感觉怪怪的

整个人没有力软软的

脑袋也怪怪的

就是不能专注但是我不懂我在想什么

明明要去晒衣服却走去另一边

明明要去洗衣服却走去晒衣服那边

刷牙把牙刷跌在地上

关门把锁匙跌在地上

应该是大脑神经搭错手脚不协调症

管他的

不会让你影响到的

我有我精彩

笑笑.....洗澡出去走走

今天一定会是很好的一天

crapping

2010-03-24T23:54:00.004+08:00

from facebook and emails

v can easily get those long long love story

telling u how good the boy treats the girl

or how deep is the love from the girl to boy

some really sound very romantic

and u will have a feeling

"ahh , i wish my mr right is like him"

but there are alwiz exceptions

some sound just too impossible

the boyfriend will wake up and get ready ur breakfast

then gently wake u up and send u to work bla bla bla

everyday roses waiting 4 u on ur table bla bla bla

but then usually these stories will end in a bad way

such as the girl has cancer la

or the boy met an accident before he wanted 2 propose to the girl la

i wonder why,to get more "like" i guess

but i have few friends who will post these links for the stories on fb everyday

and they are those telling me alwiz they are so so busy la

no time 2 sleep la

no time 4 assignments la

so stressed up and bla bla bla

yet,they are just too free 2 watch these long-winded clips or read these stories

and "like" it and share it

@%$#@#@%$#^#%&^$#

they can post all these links throughout the day

with a shout out " N assignments N reports N tests and final is coming"

really ^%@#$%^&^%$#$#%$#$%^

but in reality,my boyfriend is now having fun in guangzhou,with few more young but attached gentlemen,(without the girlfriends' nag of course) in a club drinking wine (with the reason the nite is cold) , and sending me a msg saying : the night is still young

so, this is the reality XD

sigh,i still miss him

distance

2010-03-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

2,912 kilometres (1,809.44 miles)

i google "distance between guangzhou and malaysia"

and this is the answer i got

which means

we are now 2912 kilometres apart from each other

i don't have good concept on measurements

all i know is

i feel so lost without you

and the 4-digits-number made me feel like...

eeeeeerrr...so FAR

then i started to miss you

2010-03-06T01:32:00.002+08:00

最近好喜欢的一句话

两个人手一牵连命运都改变

小时候牵爸爸的手所以很幸福的长大了

刚满二十一岁，我老爸跟我说

是时候放手让我闯了

现在我有他的手让我牵

他答应我未来是幸福的

生日当天他说明年的生日

他就有能力实现我的梦想

也说会一直牵着我的手

(can't think of a title for it)

2010-02-27T13:53:00.002+08:00

been ages i am not updating my life over here..

erm,firstly, I AM NOW 21 YEARS young ...

v tried korean cuisine for the first time

v dun really like korean food lk how v love japanese food

i got myself a membership for gym

as a bufday present from joanne to joanne

and i had two sessions till now

not bad,enjoyed sweating

i survived a week fulled wit test,quizzes and report due date

i did not receive any roses on valentine's day nor my bufday

but i received a rose wit chocolate yesterday

from a random malay uni student-whom i don't know

reason : "hari ini ialah (dunnoe wat ) of Nabi Muhamed...

so kami ingin bagi u hadiah,dan buku ini...

the title of that book : Muhummed The Greatest

by Michael H. Hart

i will be the emcee for bio night

at first i am okkay wit it de

but then when many uncertainties come in

and i knew there will be 100 guests

i was lk : omg.... what if i failed to make the floor high

and till now,i dunnoe what to wear on that night

sleepless nights,due to hot weather

and now my gum swollen

my dad said coz my body is heaty

and he asked me 2 buy coconut drink la

boil water then crack an egg into it n add in salt then drink it la

go see doc la

go home la

ya,that's my dad

*thought of his message for me on my bufday *tears*

went shopping at pragin mall wit beeyin,michelle and irene (=

they shopped for their dresses,heels and masks for our masquerade night

enjoyed the day,shopping,eating and talking

at the same night,v went to michelle's room

and jacyn joined us too

tried out all the dresses

discussed how 2 do the hair

wat colours to use for make up

bla bla bla

then the topic shifted to sometng 18sx

and talked about boys around us

i shared about my ideal dream wedding <3

wat a great night shared wit these gals

and by the time i reached my room

my legs started 2 feel the pain n tiredness

i think it's due to the gym n high heels on the previous nite

and then the walking whole day

and another sleepless nite

i miss him )=

juz now woke up at 12 noon s=

did laundry and

NOW,time 2 study,and do the on9 quiz

wish me luck (=

2010-02-19T16:18:00.000+08:00

i am so glad to have you in my life <3

a SINGLE night

2010-02-01T01:14:00.004+08:00

31st of january - my dearest dad's birthday

due to the #$%#$ field trip to (dunnoe where) i couldn't celebrate the big day with my dad

woke up 6 o'clock in the morning , den walked to school with zhenyu

so kind and sweet of her,some more bought me bread as breakfast (=

one good tng is we departed punctually !!

reached a place called batu hampar bla bla bla de , a recreation park with many rubbish all over the place

went up the hill and did the profiling in the forest

UNDER THE SUN !!!

as a result : i'm darker now - 2weeks b4 CNY $@#$%#%

spent hours under the sun , got bitten by a leech at the right arm unknowingly

and back to school again

*mr lee teong hoong drove another car to school 2day !! i have seen him in 3 different cars in these few weeks ...

back to my room , washed everytng , even the bag !! BRAVO~

out of a sudden feel lk going 4 shopping ...

asked jacyn 2 go with me , kept persuading her... but she was too lazy 2 go wit me..

so at the end , i went there alone - for the 1st time if i'm not wrong

and for the very 1st time , i tried on student cab !!!!

asked for the numbers from jacyn n zhenyu , but both of the drivers are too far away from usm

at last , got it from yichien !!! thx to her, coz the man was really kind and nice

at 1st the lady told me her husband ll be sending me,i was abit worried dd

den when i asked her how should i regconise him

she answered me :" my husband is a BLACK MAN, in white viva......"

at that time i imagined :a tall n bold black man stucks in a small little viva =s

at last it turned out to be he is a really kind,nice and friendly person

spent 3hours shopping happily - alone there

well, without my brand EWE blind man stick, i was abit lost in the mall.. embarrased ==

finally i found the all-white-3-inches high heels

not too expensive and most important is..VERY comfortable

bought clothes for myself and my dearest dad

enjoy the shopping,although crowds were everywhere,long Qs...

conclusion : sometimes,spend time shopping and buying stuffs with that "stopper" is quite stress-releasing,especially in such hot day...single-but not lonely night <3

went back,had a nice chat with jacyn... disccusing how 2 mix and match my new clothes..

and still not ready wit my english oral presentation yet.. XD

reminder to myself : you have overspent,so it's time to save money by not going for movies and shopping !!

2010-01-23T00:50:00.002+08:00

就是一种很突然的感觉

我

很想念你

3 8 1

so far so good

2010-01-19T01:07:00.005+08:00

been isolating ownself

juz feel too lazy 2 talk,dunnoe how to start the conversation (wat a stupid reason/excuse)

juz feel lk talking to those certain ppl

with them , i talked endlessly

how weird

almost a month after the new sem started

having zombie-life

wake up - school - work - sleep( to be more accurate,insomnia more then sleep)

but

I AM NOT DEAD yet

there are still good tngs happening around

best of best is

I HAVE ENROLLED MYSELF IN THE ARTISTRY BEAUTY COURSE, finally

so satisfied

i learned how 2 take care of my face and skin

learned on "gua sha"

really in love wit this

the effect is juz so amazing and great

say bye to pores and dull skin <3

will learn on make up skills and catwalk at the coming weekend !!

no longer wit those SIMPLE n FAST make up ... yeah (=

* i hurt myself when i learned how 2 trim my eyebrow (shame =s )

part of the beauty products.. LOVE them, all gave me satisfying results

i smile everytime looking at them <3

hvent get a single new clothes for CNY ... hvent in that mood yet.. how come?!

** i went to watch the football match,live for the first time

IN MALAYSIA, IN USM !!!!

couldn't believe in that , and some more it wasn't free... tickets sold at RM 10 =S

okkay, after all it wasn't too bad,except for those "@^%$#@#$%^&^%$" words whenever the players made mistakes(which means quite often), and i heard many times of "ALL*H" in that 1 hour+ .. *i'm not sure whether i can use that word,so i better use some symbol.. hoho.. coward n timid, of ISA .. =P

oh ya,i have 2 take accounting and finance as a minoring subject.. so i am going 2 study that thick and heavy book now.. mayb it can help me in my sleeping disorder.. aikz,some more have 2 answer quizzes on-line-ly de.. troublesome..

luckily i have the agreement with my dad - if i cant do the quiz or i am too busy for that, he will do for me =) and mr ewe oso very willing to help me out.. coz my maths is already poor enuf,wat's more with accounting le.. i don't even noe what is revenue,equity or liability,even after my dad tried so hard to make me understand... nvm,juz have a look and try on it 1st ... since dd have 2 men waiting 2 lend me their hands (=

so near yet so far

2010-01-01T15:31:00.002+08:00

da previous post - my christmas wish

ya,on day after christmas , i went to genting

stood in front of Merry-Go-Round

with mr ewe @ mr right?

anyhow,i din ride on it, too long the Q

so christmas wish 1/2 came true?! =S

1st day of year 2010

woke up late coz juz bek from penang

ya, v did our countdown in the car on jelutong express

made it to queensbay coz jason told me there ll b a 10minutes-musical firework

but we were late

saw ntg but got ourselves stucked in the jam

but juz now i saw a really amazingly nice fireworks o... (=

from the news .... =s that's was in Australia i guess

so , now.... make a new year wish

I want to have my countdown for year 2011 at overseas with Mr Ewe !!

so in the coming days

work hard , and achieve our dreams TOGETHER ...

Disneyland !!! with ewe <3

i have a feeling,

telling me that u are my mr right , not mr right-now.. <3

my x'mas wish

2009-12-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

go onto a Merry-Go-Round

with my Mr. Right

on Christmas night

ended up going 2 no where

2009-12-08T16:56:00.005+08:00

at 1st there are many plans for the holidays

PLANNED vacation destinations

but

at last

ended up going no where

at 1st going 2 genting twice in a month

one for fun n one for seminar

at last both oso din go

tot ll spend christmas in Singapore at Ochard Road

at last i ll be in Tower Regency Hotel IPOH ballroom

den planned to visit xian at kelantan wit jiji

now waiting 4 xian's homecoming

planned for steamboat

but no companion

sigh...

looking at others' vacation photos

now sadly going for a nap

I want this to happen , and I know it will <3

2009-11-19T15:48:00.004+08:00

since i can't control wat will happen

i can't do anytng else on wat had happened

i decided to spend my days in

kinda mood,juz lk the picture above

a broad smile

to ease my days

close my eyes

see no worries n problems

hands at the back

do wateva i need to only

and

ENJOY THE SUN

enjoy the good tngs coming to me everyday

IF

2009-11-18T21:56:00.001+08:00

if there is one day

we dun hav 2 worry about anytng

we dun hav 2 work

juz sit on the couch

leaning against each other

eating ice cream at the stuffy nite

or drinking hot chocolate in the freezing cold nite

how nice it would be

*but i lost 60% in 2day's paper - soil science

how stupid of me tat i left out one part of my notes

n two questions came out from tat part

hopefully ll pass the paper

dunwan 2 retake such boring n dull subject

praying hard

衡量 + 取舍

2009-11-16T19:28:00.001+08:00

考试遇上全国大会

衡量之后取大会舍考试

有人说：“你真的中毒了，考试都去，不留下来读书”

自己衡量过后

觉得那种‘临时抱佛脚’的习惯是改不了的

所以作出了取舍

回到书桌前发现要考的和准备了的完全不成正比

能做的也只有‘能做多少就多少’

成绩出来是不懂会不会后悔

但至少到现在

我很庆幸我出席了全国大会

因为

我知道我要的是什么

我要主宰自己的未来

也发现

开始被人淡忘了

难免心痛但不后悔

因为

我知道一切是值得的

所有的取舍

一定会带来我要的人生

每一天都在取和舍

但求不后悔

宫心计

2009-11-11T11:36:00.003+08:00

我希望

身边有一个好像皇上那样暗中为我好的人

那样我就不用下雨怕没伞

出去怕太阳了

然后要一个三好那样的好朋友

什么事都为人

那样我就一定不用烦

再来一个好像高显扬那样的男朋友

帅帅的什么都会好man

但是

要少很多金铃 !!!!!!

那样就不会每次心里不平衡

可怜那个阮司设和万将军

讨厌那个万夫人和贤妃

很怕马大将军那种人

幸好

我有像三好那样的庄淑娴和郑怡敏

差不多像高显扬那样的尤伟伦

只欠身形不像 ……

刚和irene讨论剧情，我们两个好激动

也很讨厌那个姚金铃！！！

say bye to 40

2009-11-10T17:53:00.004+08:00

the same happened for the paper juz now

juz lk yesterday

prof zubir didn't change his style

few-words-questions worth 20 marks

i have to chose two of his part

so . . . . .

" bye bye .... 40 marks "

2009-11-09T14:36:00.003+08:00

aikz , took the 1st paper

studied the most 4 this paper

sitting in front of the study table for few hours per day 4 one week

of all the questions, i know wat to answ , ROUGHLY

but when really started 2 answ , ll forget some of the key words

as usual... aikz

i wrote "transitional zone" for "transfer zone"

monomictic divided into cold n warm but stupid me tot it was dimictic that is divided into that two

aRGH~~~ so 30 marks gone

dunnoe the lecturer ll giv me sympathetic marks or not leh~

since she pronounced my name wrongly for the whole sem

i think she should do that

and

i hate sitting behind of those who kept writing 4 the three hours , NON STOP

these few days : 小病是福，做了逃兵

2009-11-01T20:38:00.003+08:00

at 1st, i PLANNED to study hard in penang 4 one week b4 coming bek 2 ipoh de.. den at penang,spent time on tvb movies n facebook,so da plan only progressed a little bit..juz a little bit~

but still not feeling bad,coz really dun feel lk forcing myself 2 read on LAKES n SOIL~~

den on the third day,i started 2 hav flu in the afternoon,den cold at the same nite

then, FEVER on the next morning ...

so mr ewe brought me 2 see doctor in tat afternoon

doc : wat happened?

me : fever

doc : when it get started?

me : tis morning

doc : flu n cough?

me : yes

doc : okkay,i ll giv u paracetamol , cough syrup n medic 4 ur flu, if tmr da symptoms still on, come bek n chech whether is it H1N1 ..

me : ......... thx doc

dunnoe why they nid 2 studied for years 2 b a doc...

took medic n slept 4 the whole afternoon , till mr ewe woke me up n said : " v go bek 2 ipoh now le,can? ""

weak me : "..... o..kkay.."

reached home, my sis was da 1st 2 see me standing at da doorstep..

her 1st reaction : " omg, why r u so pale de ?"

then, as usual, da whole liau family rushed out !!!

few went 2 get my tngs from da car, my aunt held me bek 2 my room...

i was so blurred n weak

all i can rmb is many palms on my forehead n arm, n followed wit : wah,high fever neh....

den mr liau,as usual, getting car keys want 2 drag me 2 see doc,den i said i dd see doc in penang, den he said :"panel usm ar? reliable anot? "

den i said :" she said tmr still having fever only go check 4 H1N1 "

den, all lagi nervous

tat whole nite,many ppl went in2 my room, my grandma,aunty n dad, coming in n test my body temperature lk a nurse on shift.. my younger sis even sms me saying :take care...but can i use ur laptop...

n tat was friday nite...

saturday, joanne liau recovered from the fever, but lost her voice !!! flu n cough still on

mr liau kept asking :"sure dun want 2 see doc meh?"

the same question is still repeating until NOW... when i start writing tis blog,he went out 2 fetch vivienne liau from her orchestra performance, then when he came bek saw me sneezing, he asked the question for the n times...

till now,feeling better,juz very weak le..no energy...ate too many medicine i guess...

after not studying for few days, now timne 2 bek 2 my study le..

weirdo ewe

2009-10-29T02:03:00.003+08:00

mr ewe came near to me n threw few words

he said : " girl, i love you..."

den i stared at him, with eyes opened big n round

asking him : " r u okkay? "

he never say the three words to me out of his own will

ya,he needs me to "remind" him of tat alwiz.. ><

he then step backward n laughed lk a mad scientist with new invention

saying : " v muz b mad b4 v gain success"

i felt so @#%^%$#@ n speechless

then v both bek 2 our studies

fetching comments - by 29th oct

2009-10-27T01:25:00.004+08:00

which one looks nicer ?

da one chosen ll be printed in AMWAY coming amagram n distribute to all members throughout Malaysia~

thx 4 ur comments in advance...

proud of you

2009-10-23T02:38:00.002+08:00

yesterday,sitting down there,holding camera n recording my mr ewe on stage

lk a little fans,feeling proud,because of u

hearing ppl around me praising you,i was on da cloud nine

when ppl saying u are great, i am so proud of u

not because of ur achievements,

but ur changes

u really changed alot,into a better man

ruby direct mr ewe wye lun by 2010~

as Dr. Rayceer said,

you DESERVED it

星期天

2009-10-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

想要用这样的心情

度过今天

不想用脑不想计划

只想

一个人去逛街购物看电影

等下要上第一课的黏土课

要做一只可爱的娃娃

喜欢就这样

不用用脑要做什么就做什么

够简单

但

我的每天

是做我需要做的不是做我想做的

恶心又无聊，但我喜欢

2009-10-17T02:31:00.002+08:00

他不在我身边

我去他房间

把他的抱枕偷渡回来

嗅着他的味道入睡

辩 . 变

2009-10-04T16:54:00.005+08:00

去年理辩是以参赛者的身份出席

今年理辩是以领队身份出席

一年了，在辩论圈呆了一年了

时间过得真快

一直呆着，都是因为责任

当领队也是因为责任

所以每次很累很累时，都会很想放弃

但每一次都有一种说不出的理由让我留下了

今年从生日到端午到中秋

我都没回家庆祝

每次家里的老人家就一直问我为什么没回家

每次的原因都是：有辩论比赛

每次老爸传来的简讯看了都会流眼泪

昨晚一直不敢打电话回家

因为知道自己会忍不住哭

不想他们听见我哭

最后，还是打了通电话回家

一听见婆婆说留了月饼，眼泪就开始在眼眶打滚了

再听见老爸问我下雨怎么回宿舍，眼泪就留着下了

最后以最快速度挂了电话

然后和大伙儿去吃麦当当

其实辩论圈不至于有家的感觉，但是还是会让人觉得温暖

我的小瓜和我说辩论真的很累

我答他们说是很累，但是还是会让你觉得值得的，我也不知道为什么，留在里面久了，就会懂了

渐渐的，我对圈的感觉变了

以前每次听到他们说辩论圈有家的感觉

完全觉得怪怪的

现在，至少我能明白为什么他们会那么说

虽然我还是感觉不到那种所谓的家的感觉

但是我开始觉得里面是有人情味的

在里面成长也不错

至少脑袋不至于空空的

虽然，我真的还不能接受理华的那一套

也觉得开会和打会议报告很累

但是，因为说不出的理由

我会呆在里面的

和他们一起见证 十圈十美

居然捧了冠军杯回家

你们真的是说到做到哦

不懂你们算不算是黑马

但是

宣布成绩的那一刻

真的很感动

你们害我又在那么多人面前哭了

看见你们在台上那么帅

看见你们一个一个进步成长

在台下好开心哦

每次你们捉对点讲对话

我的头快要点到掉下来了

每次你们时间快到了但还没讲到点

我的心就紧张到要掉出来了

每次你们呈完了自己的稿

我的手拍到好痛哦

但是值得的

希望你们每个会继续留在辩论圈

何奕汶同学，你也是哦

因为辩论圈会给每个人很多不同的感觉

发现

2009-09-30T00:57:00.003+08:00

才分开就开始想念

即使坐在你身旁不讲话也觉得幸福

因为开始习惯

有你在身边

所以希望永远在身边

有你，每天都甜甜的

2009-09-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

今天搭巴士回槟城

到了车站发现交通严重瘫痪

“慈济”在车站旁有活动

等佳辉来把我捡回去时

看见一位爸爸，带着三个女儿

从“慈济”的活动那里走出来

三个女儿手里都拿着故事书

仔细再看，三个都穿名牌童装，名牌鞋子

再看那位爸爸

穿着普通，白衬衫，黑色西装裤加普通皮鞋

有种熟悉的感觉

想了片刻

终于想起了

完全就是我爸和廖家三姐妹嘛

以前我爸也是常常这样带着我们三个出街的

好怀念哦~

下次回家约他们出街逛逛（=

he is getting better,n i'm proud of him <3

2009-09-21T12:32:00.003+08:00

finally,dear u did it !!!

all this while,u worked so hard for this

but i seldom help u in it

u alwiz working hard for our future

but i alwiz complain u din spend time wit me

everyone come n tell me u improved alotz

n i'm so glad hearing that

love looking at the seriously working u

dear,i'm so proud of u

*dun forget my "coach" bag when u go 2 guangzhou wo =p *

累

2009-09-18T01:04:00.002+08:00

连续整个星期都是在忙一个接一个的东西~这一秒在忙下一秒的~

累到~

脚没了知觉，肩膀酸到....以后都不想再打字了...

刚才走路时提太多东西，又下雨，结果磨损了皮~痛！！！

现在走路一拐一拐了 )= 不明白为什么没有巴士

之前一系列的工作，终于有些已经过了~

不懂会不会被弹回来，但至少我真的下功夫了~

政治真的好难懂，史记真的不易懂

今天总共开了三个会议，三个风马牛不相及的东西，但唯一共同点：足以把我累坏

可惜，还是惯性地在三个会议里说了同一句话：我做啦，包在我身上！

其实每次我说这句话时，我都觉得那个任务不难，但是过后总会有些些后悔

可是我的人就是那样，头脑简单，我每次只分析到那一刻的东西，往往忘了自己已经杠下好多东西了~ 不过算了，我唯一优点是，我答应的，我一定办到...不管你认同与否，但我觉得我是~

不过，真的分身乏术，其实今天我逃了一个会议，应该要中骂了...因为知道会缺席，所以下午拼了命地赶工，也不懂XX会不会收获，可是，真的很努力了.....

又要开工了~加油~！！！

正式宣布

2009-09-14T09:29:00.004+08:00

如果我的blog会长草，应该长得蛮高了.....

之前忙到快要疯掉，都没有时间来除草种新花了

可是，我正式宣布与

接下来，我会更加忙

因为我们进决赛了~~ 真是有当了黑马的感觉

想到未来这两个星期的每一晚，我就很想把自己反锁在房间里....

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下来的 to-do-list

oceanograpy group presentation - 还蛮难搞的

oceanography assignment - 应该不会很顺利完成，因为老师教那天，我缺席了 )=

hubungan etnik presentation - 一个很无聊，但超耗时的功课

准备辩题 - 个人机遇/个人能力比较重要 -中秋节那晚决赛 )=

读史记 -_-|||| -ck真的很看得起我哦~

了解课题 - 什么是 PKFZ + 翁诗杰和蔡细厉的恩怨 + 一千万现金 + 马华特大

show 16 plan - 最容易做的一个，但是还是没时间开始 )'=

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还有很多零零散散的任务，但这些是每天萦绕在我脑袋里面的...让我感到压力的

以上所有任务必须在10月前完成，可惜......

革命尚未成功，joanne还需努力！！

加油~ 坚持~

终于

2009-09-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

打了好多好多电话

发了好多好多简讯

终于过了.....

比想象中好了点，至少有人赏脸~虽然比预算差太远~

要更努力！！！加油哦 ~

2009-08-31T00:51:00.000+08:00

我很累

抱一抱，好吗？

雨未停过

2009-08-28T13:40:00.000+08:00

今天起床听到的第一把声音

不是闹钟铃声是下雨声

冷到醒

结果雨就下到现在未停过

这两天和我形影不离

为我遮风挡雨的

不是他是它

辛苦你了

从前晚初次见面

你就一直为我遮雨

幸好有你

（=

下雨天

2009-08-28T01:58:00.000+08:00

雨下了一天

所以一直觉得很冷

每次下雨我就会变得特别有愁善感

今天一想到接下来整个9月的活动

心突然很怕

突然很想哭

很怕到最后什么都做不好

最怕就是根本做不来

可是还是接了好多任务在身

活动表已经排到10月了

那天知道中秋节不能回家很想要求回家

但却有不好意思开口的感觉

但又不知道怎样安慰在家等我吃月饼的婆婆

结果我选择“到时才算”

今天真的很冷

好想有个厚厚的肩膀和暖暖的拥抱

加上一句：加油！有我在~

不满情绪继续高涨

2009-08-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

面对那些完全在自我国度的人，真的可以让我有冲动骂人

完全忘我状态，不顾旁人，自顾自己爽

似乎所有人都有义务服务他们，然后他们就只会要求

你们爽就好，别麻烦其他人，可以吗？

要求不高，只希望你们可以顾虑其他人的感受

不是每个人都需要满足你们的要求的

要这个要那个，自己去搞定啦~！

长那么大，还那么天真不负责任

尤其是你，让我跌破眼镜

算我看漏眼

不是我不想和你们说话，但面对“极度忘我”的你们，我真的说不出话

S.O.S

2009-08-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

need help here !!!!

whole afternoon working wit the dumb dumb windows movie maker..

wat i get is "windows not responding" everytime after i did some changes

worse is,wat i did ll lost when i resume da tng

tried 2 solve,but based on my little knowledge on pc

aikz..failed~!@#$%^$#@%^

tmr hav 2 bring da stupid laptop 2 c doctoc dd..

once after da one-year-warranty

tis idiot machine alwiz give me tonnes of problem de! duh~

me myself oso hav 2 c doctoc lu..

long time din c doc choo dd..

tis weekend go la..

hate my skin condition~

AND,

cant go 2 genting dd

cheated by those ppl

y alwiz u all decide n i can only obey wo?!

i dd planned so nice den u all only tell me not going

disappointed + sad + angry

~fah fah~

2009-08-17T14:48:00.000+08:00

its from "someone" on my 18th birthday~

tat time saw its a flower,so juz called it fah fah,till now...

*flower = fah in cantonese..

since tat day,fah fah sleeps wit me everynite~

followed me 2 many places dd

still rmb tat stupid "someone" sprayed his car perfume on it

because i once said his car has good smell

for 2 years,fah fah is by my side everynite

when tat "someone" is there wit me, fahfah ll b neglected pulak..hiakz hiakz..

since today is a sunny bright day,sent fah fah out 4 sunbathing~

for da 1st time..

ya,fahfah neva take bath nor dry wash b4 de

tis was da 1st time..

pity her..sat alone under da big hot sun

*not tat im dirty n lazy,just tat not cruel enuf 2 send it out under da sun,wat's more into detergent le...

just want to share

2009-08-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

hoohoo~ i met wit xian n hung around wit her~!!! so nice... been some time since v last met,so 2 of us were so excited~ but coz of limnology lab,cant really bring her 2 places le... she oso had 2 duty at her booth~

they all having health expo in main campus, so many doctors-to-be n dentists-to-be in da hall... not really nerd nerd looking la,but still...hehe~ followed them 2 butterworth tat nite,main reason is 2 stick wit xian only...hehe~ i'm da only non-doctor there,felt so special~ watched movie n supper wit them,till 3am...wow~ they all are so well-trained 2 stay up at nite,2 study~

den xian oso alwiz stayed in da lab wit me...lk last time..she was da one doing all da lab work 4 me since form 4,till form 6~

how i wish xian is my coursemate.. now have 2 wait 4 another month 2 meet her lu~

oso met wit paopao they all agin le,they came bek 2 penang 4 their convo~ convo week~traffic jam in da whole campus...all way are blocked..all parking are fulled~

so many parents here...actually looking at those old grandparents n parents,quite touched by them..dd so old,so walked so slowly,but still came all da way 4 the children's convo..saw one old mother holding all da son's tngs n da son was busy taking photos...so sad..dd a graduate la,still nid da mum 2 serve him lk a child..wat 2 do,in parents' mind,children ll alwiz b children..no matter they dd graduated or working,they ll still taking care of them as they are still in kindergarden.. and many ll take tat 4 granted..

must work harder,b a daughter tat wun make my parents worry abt me...

2nite ll meet wit jason 4 tea or movie.. oso long time din c him lu... (=

mr lee is in a relationship again..hooray 4 him... they 2 juz lk weather le... [winks]

*hate those ppl tat only care abt their own feelings n trouble ppl around 2 settle tngs 4 them~!

come on la,b mature la...u think everyone has tat responsibility 2 serve u de meh~wan tis n tat,do it by urself la... @#$%#$%^&

limnology field trip

2009-08-10T17:09:00.000+08:00

date : 8th and 9th of August 09

venue : Pedu Lake,Kedah

water from da lake is used 2 generate electricity~

objective: to get lake water samples bek 2 da lab n do some research,n get 10% from da reports

introduction:

it took 3 hours 2 reach Pedu Lake from USM , da lake is located near 2 da Malaysia-Thailand border,so v can c army camp~ n v were told 2 bring along our identity card,juz in case v look lk smugglers... (=

they let us stayed in da army quarters,or i shud say AIR-CONDITIONED-quarters~ not too bad..clean environment~ food provided~ not too spicy,so i din suffer too much~ [winks]

coz its in jungle area,so NO connection for us.. handphones are used as alarm n clock ONLY

materials:

~all the equipments v need,DO meter,TSC meter n bla bla bla...prepared by those master students who went wit us 2 help us...* ya,lecturer was there 2 say hi n went bek wit da family~

~sleeping bag... no bed for us.. ]=

procedure :

~ 8th Aug

1. everyone take turns 2 go out 2 da lake 2 get samples and do some studies

my group was scheduled 2 go at 6pm,so tat whole afternoon,we were on our own...u can sleep or eat or do wateva u lk,juz dun cross over da border n get shoot by da army~ this was wat v were brief about...

2. since we were too free,v explored da place on our own..wheneva our khaw seek chuan is there,u ll hav tngs 2 do...

first,we went to da deer farm,ya,they have a deer farm~ not tat fun... no interest in animals~

then our mr khaw seek chuan saw rambutan trees,so under his leadership,v all went 4 rambutans~ da guys jumped as they could 2 get those rambutans..WOW~ sweet n juicy~ nice...yummy~ everyone started 2 get more after da 1st taste n even more when v found sticks tat were long enuf 2 get da fruits~

leader khaw seek chuan

after enjoying da fruit feast,rested n then started 2 feel bored again... so exploration comtinued... n this time v found da reservoir... da place they generate electricity...

exploring~

when men were too bored~

and after all these... not 6pm yet..aikz..

stayed in da quarter n rested lo..n da 1st group ppl came bek all wet~ heavy rain up there..wow~ so nervous.... tik tok tik tok~ n finally it was 6pm~

happily go 2 gather~n here come da sad news~ "engine rosak,so kumpulan u org pergi station lapan aje lah~ "

due to da boat engine problem,instead of 3 stations,v only managed 2 go 2 da NEAREST station,where v can see it from da jetty~ sad~ disappointed~

the jetty~

so v did everytng n went bek lo...not even one hour v took~

3. nite time did da filtration of water samples,some microscope work... n lights off~ zzZZZ~....

~9th Aug

due to da poor organisation n arrangement,this whole day,v were FREE~ ya,free..ntg 4 us to do..

they arrange da schedule lk wat they did when there were only 7 students..aikz,n we have 30+ students..so...aikz...da way they brief us oso lk how they brief 7 students..made all of us misunderstood only~ tot v hav 2 stay awake n take samples bla bla bla.... tatz y so disappointed~

but one good tng is,v managed 2 know each others ~ usually go 2 lectures oso no chances 2 chat~

1st time i noe hu is miza,ikah,afifah,aini,fadilah n bla bla bla~

den when all did da sampling,say bye 2 Pedu~ tatz already 7pm...

dicussion :

since v had plenty of time,v talked abt final year project,which lecturer can helps u 2 score..... fruitful chat..compared 2 usual v are juz hi-and-bye type if frens...

conclusion:

this field trip is not a tough one...quite boring,did not learn anytng

**can i hand in this report instead of da troublesome one.. tmr still hav 2 bek 2 da lab 4 da chemical analysis 4 da water samples... dun care la,off 4 movie wit dear now... yesterday was our 29th month anniversary <3

2009-08-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

刚从怡保回到槟城，累~ 昨晚搭 edwin 的顺风车，120千的新车只给我一个印象，冷！很冷~从我一上车就冷到回家~幸好那时身旁有那么一个他...

厚厚的肩膀，和暖暖的手 <3

从UTHM回来一个星期了，现在才有时间坐下来好好的休息... 第一次南下到柔佛州，和一群学长学姐一起...很不错的经验...到今天都还记得比赛前一晚看见他们的努力与用心...他们再累，也不会喊一声累。看见harry捧着稿件睡着又醒来继续背稿件，看见ck好累好累的样子,看见茹莹一直吩咐harry叫醒她完成结辩稿....我那晚也睡不着了，好担心他们，但又无能为力~只想说，他们对辩论的那份心，是让人钦佩的~更加不想让他们失望 .... 希望能够顺利派队参加全辩！

结果回到槟城，恩至辛辛苦苦做的嘴巴没派完，迎夜也没什么成功，例常也是中规中矩的过了，新生人数不太乐观，理辩更是.....

整个星期的课还是那样...soil 的课我真的很没兴趣，limnology越来越多东西搞不懂，得花时间了，oceanograpy还不错，出海晒了一个下午，取样本和学用一堆仪器，pollution那天连续上了三小时，晕~但这是唯一一科我最有兴趣的...也是我读了那么多年书以来第一次会把学到的东西告诉人的，就像我上幼稚园那时每天捉着我婆婆讲我学了什么那样....很开心没选错major了，因为这就是我想念的....

等下又要收拾行李了，明天大清早要去kedah pedu lake~不是去玩，也是去field work和取样本回来~去两天，我的周末会在湖上和大大的太阳渡过~所以回家带了帽子回来~还带了睡袋，运动装等~也因为它，我没得回家...

已经两个星期没回家了，以前是没什么的，但自从婆婆生病了，我尽量跑回家，因为她老人家只希望能多见我，她最疼就是我的了...昨晚回到她已经睡了，今早以起来，就看见她在吃药了，看在眼里，心里就怪怪的，整个下午陪着婆婆看电视，到我又背着行李和她说byebye时，她抓得我紧紧的，鼻子一酸，眼泪又来了....

一个人在房间，想起家，眼泪就会不受控制的流~

然后就会很想他可以在身边~

虽然他不会安慰我，但我只希望可以抱着他，靠着他.... 我的他

when u are not around

2009-07-29T17:28:00.000+08:00

when u are not around, i realised i am really a nobody... no one ll cares n no one ll mind.. n u are too busy to care.. u are not wit me when i hav2face all those tngs tat are really s*cks.. tis few days,im all by myself.... n i really dislike tat...am i too dependant,or im juz tat weak... keep telling myself i can do tngs without u around,but i juz cant... i hate crossing roads alone,i hate eating alone,i hate going from places to places alone....i hate being alone... n now,i am alone at foyer dk,coz tis is da only place 4 me 2 get access 2 da internet..n i really dun lk 2 stay in my room,can't stand wit her bad habits...evil me,juz now i almost yell at her,can somebody pls save me out of tis?! crying in da toilet 2 destress doesn't help alotz..

juz for no reason,i dun feel lk talking,i dun feel lk moving...i juz do wat i hav 2 do,say wat i hav 2 say...n smile,so tat they wun ask me da same question:"y u look so tired n sad de?r u okkay?"

i oso dunnoe how 2 answ dd...can i juz tell them i miss my mr ewe wye lun too much till i dun feel lk talking?!

weirdo me,when ppl care n ask,i dunnoe how 2 react,coz im too lazy to tell them how i feel,when no one cares,i feel so bad being a nobody..hate being in such kinda attitude..

actually,i juz want a hug from sumore really cares...wanna go home =[

anyhow,i noe its more important 4 u 2 stay in ipoh...so pls promise to me u ll make all these miserable days worthy....

tmr hav 2 go 2 batu pahat dd,n 4 tis reason,cant take da oceanograpy test n hav 2 do it tmr,alone in prof's office..hope his office is not tat eerie-old-type of office... n ray juz called telling me no more ticket coming bek 2 penang!!! wat shud i do?! wat can i do?! i dunnoe,leave it 2 God le... i am getting weaker to think n take action...ya,JOANNE LIAU IS GETTING TIRED OF ALL THESE...

trying hard 2 stay strong,stay tough...working my way out 2 b da JOANNE LIAU i want 2 be..who i alwayz want 2 be...

i am JOANNE LIAU ~

2009-07-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

juz bek from penang,dunnoe y once reached home feel so exhausted~ slept lk a dead log

grandma really weak dd, dunnoe wat can i do...all i can is coming home every weekend...

cant access 2 internet in hostel,now on9 at home hav 2 do so many tngs...hav 2 write script n email 2 enjye,try 2 do da soil lab report,settle this n that...think abt it dd feel so tired...

next week ll b so miserable..everyday de schedule dd packed wit appointments...monday hav 2 meetings,tuesday oso hav meeting,weds meet prof,n duty at booth,thurs oceanography paper,thurs nite starts journey 2 batu pahat 4 competiton,monday dawn only bek 2 penang... den 8am hav class.... again,think abt it,feel so eerie n tired.. physically exhausting... BE TOUGH~

this whole week worked so hard,making appointments,doing planning,facing ups n downs,overcome all those rejections n disappointments... every nite bek 2 my room,feel so weak,look at da mirror,tell myself,its worthy~! mentally exhausting,yet, BE STRONG~ take a bath n plan 4 da next day!! small matter,ntg can pull me bek in achieving my dreams...its my future,its my life~ i dream big,n my big dream ll last until i achieved it!

whether i ll get my LV bag or not,tmr work ll determine...my last chance!! people,never look down at me..im young,im small,but I AM TOUGH!! I AM JOANNE LIAU~ JOANNE LIAU WHO WILL MAKE HER FAMILY PROUD OF HER ~!

L O V E

2009-07-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

love...love..love...

sumtng abstract,yet feels so real...

da same chemical reaction,with SOOOOOOOO many different results..

a fren,lost a long-loved galfren,living in a miserable life now...only drinks black coffee,no sugar no milk,only listen 2 those "dragging music"....i dunnoe how 2 describe tat,its music tat ll make u feel so gloomy n if u are not positive thinking enuf,u ll jump down from da building tat type of music..

another fren,oso lost da long-loved galfren,had miserable life after tat..but this fella is a "kind" person..where he wun tell u how sad he is nor he wun show u any sour faces...he juz dunwan ppl around him 2 worry abt him..n now,he passed thru those lonely days,n he found his new love life~ great 2 him,congratz~~~!!! how sweet he is now~

another one,still single,never attached 2 any1 b4 tis... who alwiz ask me how it will be when v hav da other half..she ll ask me how it feels,how it works n bla bla bla...tat day when i was taking my bath,she even asked me : hav u ever thinking of marry him ar? .... i was washing my feet n i almost lost balance~ ** da answer : YES~!!!

also there is a fren,a really close fren whom is already part of my family i think..love da galfren too much tat he juz can 4giv all da mistakes n accept wateva she is,good or bad~ he tried 2 change her,but failed to..so he chose 2 accept~love love love~ touched huh?! but not da galfren.. all da best 2 da couple

not every man ll b tat great,i oso hav a fren who treats da galfren in a way of his own~ well,sorry 2 say he is a selfish kind of person..or shall i say self-centered?! he wun help da galfren 2 carry heavy tngs,nor shelther da galfren from rain...but da other way round,da galfren ll carry tngs n hold da umbrella for him..yet,da fren of mine claimed he loves da gal so much... n da galfren says she loves da way he's in.. sumtimes,tngs v feel so wrong is actually so okkay 4 those who is in love~

lastly,me myself... my boyfren do not have those qualities v ll list down when ppl ask us questions lk : how shud ur ideal boyfren be..

he is juz taller den me by 13cm,he is plump,really plump tat i almost type fat..

he is so careless tat he wun notice u are cold

he is so hot-tempered tat he ll curse when tngs doesn't run well

he alwiz break promises

n he alwiz do tngs in da way i dun agree wit...

y i love him den? i juz dunnoe~

but one tng i love abt him is he is not a calculative person..even when ppl take advantages on him..

he alwiz plan 4 our future,without telling me a word,but he is working so hard 4 it..

he cant give me any big surprises,but he ll giv me all da minor minor little tngs tat i need,4 example,menstrual pain pills and

antiseptic cream..ya,tngs u wun lk as a present but are really important when in need

Just because he doesn't love me in the way i want,doesn't mean he don't love me...

yeah~ tats wat i alwiz agree wit

melted

2009-07-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

rmb da thief i mentioned in da previous post? ya,becoz of him my family ll keep our hse keys when they sleep..so tat even tat thief enter our hse,he wun b able 2 get da keys.. tatz wat happened 2 my neighbour,tat fella stole all his cash,valuebles n keys..weird~ so 4 tis, my dad installed double locks 4 all da rooms dd~ n now every1 have 2 lock da door when v sleep,aikz,caused my grandma having difficulty in waking us up only

n becoz of tis funny reason,juz now when mr ewe wye lun wanted 2 pass me sumtng,he had 2 climb over da gate~

dunnoe y o,watching him climbing,felt kinda sweet n being loved~ haha..n den only i knew he juz wanted 2 pass me a heart shaped sweet~ how sweet of him...

actually..although i alwiz complain tat he dun show his care n love,deep in my heart,i know he loves me...he juz dunnoe da way 2 show it..i know he is alwiz trying 2 giv me da best of bestest tngs..but juz dunnoe y,i still lk 2 tease him,saying he dun care abt me...hoho~tatz GIRLS~ or shall i say immature/childish girls~?!

变化比计划还要快

2009-07-03T13:47:00.000+08:00

刚才在洗碗时想着要做的东西因为有变动，被迫延迟到今晚

心想要在这里update一句话， procastination is da thief of time....

洗碗后婆婆叫我收衣服...结果...

我家的衣服又被偷掉了！！

这次是我两个妹妹的校服，两套普普通通的国中中学生校服，也不是什么日本可爱妹妹的校服...

上次一觉睡醒，我们家所有女人的内衣内裤内在美都没了~

连我婆婆的那种特大号的阿嬷内裤也遭殃~

最好笑的是，那个贼不是连衣架衣夹一起偷，而是把衣架衣夹放回原位，就好像平时我们收衣服那样，只要衣服！无奈~

这次也一样，我只看见四个衣架挂在那里，校服没了...更无奈的是，我爸的crocodile shirt 和 G2000西装裤就在校服旁边，他又不偷~

突然我在想，或许是一个很穷的妈妈没有钱为孩子买新校服，所以被逼那么做~我不懂为什么我会那么想..可是，这是我最能接受的解释~

所以，因为这个变化，我计划好的post变成了这个~

一定要做到

2009-07-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

假期完了，要做到的事情，没做到~

不行了，不能再拖延了~！！

辛苦这三五年，享受这一辈子

不想再让其他人失望了

即使你说我变了，你说我傻，我还是要做得到

一切归零，从心出发，从新出发！

我就不信你们做到的我会做不到

接下来的12个月，牺牲玩乐，成全自己的梦想！！

要玩就到最好的地方玩。要享受就享受最好的

反正毕业后也是要去拼世界，不如现在就开始拼

现在玩几年就要拼到退休，不如我现在一次过拼到底，玩到我腻

不是我被洗脑了，而是我想通了

身边的人看不懂，自己就要先看懂，别人看懂了，我就已经掌握了

台大学生新必修课-5大昆虫学

要向虫虫学习

蜘蛛学-善用网络，在上面来去穿梭，捕抓猎物

蜜蜂学-到处采蜜并懂得储存，从学生时代就学习创造、管理和累计财富

蝴蝶学-懂得适时打扮、包装自己

蚊子学-时时吸收新知，才能有发想元素

蟑螂学-打不死的精神，具抗压性，逆境生存

接下来的12个月，死都要成功

tonight~

2009-06-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

yahooo~tonight is dear's recognition nite <3

now at home wit grandma,cant go out n work wit him.. dunnoe he is okkay onot..

hoho~ my 1st time buying flowers as gift..now only i realised a bouquet of flowers can b quite costly...wat 2 do,my dearest wo..

but sad is,his frens,his best of frens...aikz..

asked them 2 attend da rally n support him is juz lk asking them not 2 eat for 30hours,they juz have too many excuses..

y cant they juz support him ? not asking them 2 work wit him oso...

know dear hopes 2 c them de,but cant do anytng dd..now waiting 4 their calls le..

hopefully they ll go ~

his cousin booked da wrong flight ticket,ishh~ oso cant attend~

but this time,his mum n dad are so supportive o...

dear,u worked so hard for all these,make sure u enjoy ur nite...

congratulations to Gold Producer Mr. EWE WYE LUN ~!

i love u

**im quite sure soon u ll b able 2 buy ur 1st ever dream car [winks] ^^v

just for sharing sake

2009-06-19T10:14:00.000+08:00

i cut-and-paste tis from a forward mail...i seldom read forward mails,but 4 tis,i read through da whole tng,till da end~those lines with colours other den blue are lines tat i lk.. =]

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion.Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple..
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
46.Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.

2009-06-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

whole day at home to accompany grandma and aunty

tmr is my turn 2 take care of grandma,coz aunty has 2 work

tatz y 2day is my orientation day

cook porridge n oat+feeding n holding = professional grandma's personal nurse

tatz 4 tmr...

for 2day,aikz

hot afternoon+ meetings minutes = miserable thursday

but luckily i found tis..

tis is nice... ^^v

心中有股莫名的恐惧

2009-06-17T13:14:00.000+08:00

昨天去了KL ，今早一回来爸就说尽量留在家，因为婆婆又生病了..... 这几天都是这样，医生也看了几次了..... 结果回到家，吓到了~ 第一次看见婆婆病到要躺在床上的，她向来都很强的，病了也只是休息，这次要躺着，就证明她真的很不舒服了

婆婆急促的呼吸声把我吓到了，医生说他的心脏和肾脏都弱了... 坐在她身边陪着她，很怕很想哭，又不能... 只能安慰婆婆说小病而已，其实在安慰自己....结果最后还是躲回房里哭.... 突然很怕，这就是我一直怕看到的....我真的接受不倒，好怕好怕~

看见婆婆起床也没力，坐着又辛苦，躺着又不舒服，我心里就怪怪的...想到的东西就是悲悲的灰灰的.....

要努力工作了，快点成功，至少让爸快点享福~！

生老病死真的很恐怖 =[

今天回幼儿园，jaime就跑来跟我说她爸爸意外去世了，抱着她突然不懂要怎么接她的话...一个六岁的小孩，也不知道她真的明白爸爸去世是什么意思....再看看ivanleong，又是一个可怜的孩子，可是见到他真的进步了许多，至少他爸爸会比较欣慰吧....

还是很怕，怎么办~

**ji, 答应和你庆祝生日的，但真的走不开了，对不起哦~ 生日幸福，天天快乐 <3

cut it shorter again~

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LOVE MY HAIR SHORT <3

j o a n n e

My Mr. Right

选择

SMILE

Visualising my dream

Current me

Testing

No free meal please

When You're gone )=

时间真的不会等你

坚持

be a kite a.k.a. another crapping post

just a short n brief update (=

lovey-dovey

a 5D4N trip . . . .

(=

至少我尽力而为

不对自己仁慈

吸引力法则 - the secret

crapping

distance

(can't think of a title for it)

a SINGLE night

so far so good

so near yet so far

my x'mas wish

ended up going 2 no where

I want this to happen , and I know it will <3

IF

衡量 + 取舍

宫心计

say bye to 40

these few days : 小病是福，做了逃兵

weirdo ewe

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proud of you

星期天

恶心又无聊，但我喜欢

辩 . 变

发现

he is getting better,n i'm proud of him <3

累

正式宣布

终于

雨 未停过

下雨天

不满情绪继续高涨

S.O.S

~fah fah~

just want to share

limnology field trip

when u are not around

i am JOANNE LIAU ~

L O V E

melted

变化比计划还要快

一定要做到

tonight~

just for sharing sake

心中有股莫名的恐惧

cut it shorter again~

雨未停过